Weird Story (?)

I dunno what can i say in this blog. I just feel so confused and really dunno what to do. I mean, i think i'm in love w/ someone but i really don't wanna feel like this cause it's so impossible to make him wanna care w/ me. He doesn't even know me! I never talk w/ him. I guess i'm just his secret admire. But if i could be "frontal" i just wanna say like this :

"All the things that i know is you're not gone. All the things that i know is you can't be gone. All the things that i know is you belong with me. All the things that i know is i feel enough when i see your laugh. Please, just give me a chance before you graduate cause i just can't stop loving you"

Gosh, i should keep focus w/ my mission! I'm sure i wanna move on cause i don't wanna disturb him anymore. If i could only say one thing for that person, i wanna say, "sorry for being annoying to bother you cause i just can't stop loving you." Haha sounds really not cool. Okay peeps, i guess that enough about my weird story. Bye!

Fave Songs part 1

The Story Of Us by Taylor Swift

I used to think that one day we'd tell the story of us,
And how we met
And how the sparks flew instantly
And people would say they're the lucky ones

I used to know my place was the spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to a fallout,
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up, I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Next chapter

How did we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight

So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Now, now, now

And were not speaking,
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
'Cause were going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

The End



Enchanted by Taylor Swift

There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired place lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say

It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/enchanted-lyrics.html }
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you




These songs are especially for someone who i love more than my life and always makes my heart starts beating faster :')

My Memories About Him

I wanna share something here. I ever had a close friend when i was 4 years old. His name's Nando. My mom told me that he's a nice and handsome guy. He always played with me. He called me "Nadila." On last holiday i went to Bandar Lampung my birthplace. Actually i wished i could meet him in that place but i didn't meet him :( my mom said that he's in Kendari now. It's so far from Jakarta. But i always wish i could meet him even just for a day cause i really wanna see his face. I saw him as my brother and maybe now i still miss him as my brother. When he was a child, he's like an angel. He never did something bad to me. I really wanna know where's him now. Maybe he's 16 now and will be 17. He's 2 years older than me. He has a younger sista. His sista's name is Siska. Siska is younger than me. And what else? I can't tell you all about him cause i really dunno all about him. I just know his nickname. Just that. But i believe, someday i'll meet him for once again no matter what happen :) That's my destiny to meet him for once again. God, please make my dream comes true.

Long Time No Post

Long time no post. Haha i'm a senior high school student now and i feel very tired. Okay udah lama gue ngilang dari blog gue. Nah, sekarang gue pengen ngomong sesuatu yang udah gak bisa gue pendam lagi. Jadi gini loh, gue itu adalah orang yang selalu takut untuk berubah. Gue paling takut ngedenger orang berpandangan negative sama gue. Aduh, baru aja gue nulis beberapa baris langsung dapet masalah dan rasanya gak enak banget. Kata guru gue, karna bintang gue Scorpio jadi gue mudah tersinggung dan agak cengeng. Ya, itu emang bener sih. Malah bener banget. Tapi gue gak cengeng loh. Okay make it faster. Backing to the topic. Terkadang nih ya gue itu kalo udah marah banget suka ngomong kasar. Emang jelek banget sih sifat gue. Jadi, apa maksud gue nulis blog? Gue pengen mencoba untuk berubah secara bertahap. Tapi gue ragu. Apa gue bisa? Terus ada hal lain lagi yang bikin gue ngerasa sedih. Kata orang perbedaan itu indah. Tapi kenapa bagi gue perbedaan justru terasa menyakitkan? Apalagi perbedaan yang begitu jauh. Hhh gue kayaknya lebih suka "persamaan" daripada perbedaan. Kadang kan pasti kita ngerasa kalo kita gak diterima karna kita berbeda. Yah, pokoknya gitu deh. Gue gak tau mesti nulis dengan cara gimana abisan bingung. Terus ini ada dua lagi yang lagi gue suka banget untuk saat ini.

I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we see
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not
Around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
(still you're gone)
Can't believe that I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I miss those blue eyesnya diganti sama kalimat i miss those black eyes aja deh. Terus kalimat how you kissed me at night nya diilangin aja deh.


Hero by Sterling Knight

I'm no superman
I can't take your hand
And fly you anywhere
You wanna go (yeah)

I can't read your mind
Like a billboard sign
And tell you everything
You wanna hear but

I'll be your hero

I, I can be everything you need
If you're the one for me
Like gravity I'll be unstoppable

I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy
With heart and soul
But if you're the one for me then
Then I'll be your hero

(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero
(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero

Searching high and low
Trying every road
If I see your face
How will I know(yeah)

I put my trust in fate
If you'll will come my way
And if it's bright
It's undeniable (yeah)

I'll be your hero

I, I can be everything you need
If you're the one for me
Like gravity I'll be unstoppable

I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy
WIth heart and soul
But if you're the one for me then
Then I'll be your hero

(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero
(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero

So incredible
Some kind of miracle
When it's meant to be
I'll become a hero
So I'll wait, wait
Wait, wait for you

I'll be your hero

I, I can be everything you need
If you're the one for me
Like gravity I'll be unstoppable
(Be unstoppable)

I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy
With heart and soul
But if you're the one for me
I'll be your hero

(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
I'll be your hero
(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
I'll be your hero


Kata Supermannya diganti sama wonderwoman terus kata guy diganti sama girl aja deh. Ini lagu yang ada di Starstruck dan gue suka banget film itu meski gue biasa aja sih sama tokoh utamanya hehe.

Okay deh i guess that's all. Au revoir!

PERCY JACKSON & THE OLYMPIANS : THE LIGHTNING THIEF

Once again! A fantastic movie! PERCY JACKSON & THE OLYMPIANS : THE LIGHTNING THIEF. Well, that movie's so amazing! I like the guys who played as Percy and Luke. Okay, let me introduce them and the others.



Logan Lerman as Percy Jackson



Brandon T. Jackson as Grover



Alexandra Daddario as Annabeth



Jake Abel as Luke



Catherine Keener as Sally Jackson



Kevin McKidd as Poseidon



Sean Bean as Zeus



Steven Coogan as Hades

and many more.

You know i really like Old Greek Myth. And if i don't live on the earth i must be believe about that myth! So, what should i say? I REALLY WANNA SEE THAT MOVIE FOR ONCE AGAIN!

VALENTINE'S DAY MOVIE

Bonne-nuit people! Hey, did you know somethin hmm? Okay, let me tell you. I saw Valentine's Day movie! Let me repeat it for one more time, I SAW VALENTINE'S DAY MOVIE! Oh God! I watched it with Padil, Qina, and Muti. In this movie i like Ashton Kutcher, Carter Jenkins, Taylor Lautner, Taylor Swift, Bryce Robinson, Jennifer Garner, Anne Hathaway, Jessica Alba, Emma Roberts, and Topher Grace. Their action are so awesome especially Taylor Swift, Ashton Kutcher, and Carter Jenkins! I really like Ashton Kutcher. I like the parts when Ashton Kutcher kissing his best friend, Jennifer Garner and when Taylor Lautner falling down and also when Taylor Swift doing a crazy dance. Lol funny. Taylor Swift and Lautner made me laugh! Seriously i wanna see this movie for once again but my mom told me that i can't see some movies for this month and next month because of my National Exam. Poor me :( But, it's okay. I can buy the dvd. Umm, can i put their photos in here? I hope so.




This is Ashton Kutcher. He looks handsome, doesn't he?




And this yeah this is Carter Jenkins!




Everyone knows him. He's Taylor Lautner!




Here it is! My favourite singer, Taylor Swift!




Bryce Robinson! He looks so cute!




Ya rite, she's Jennifer Garner :)





Anne Hathaway :D





Jessica Alba. She looks pretty, rite?





This is Emma Roberts. She's so exotic.




Alright guys, this is Topher Grace.


And many more. I feel tired now. But still feel happy. Okay guys, bye! Ttyl. Have a nice day!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALFRED THOMAS HIGHMORE!

Hello all :) Tau gak kenapa hari ini gue seneng banget? Hihi soalnya gue abis nonton film From Paris With Love. Terus kenapa? Gue udah kangen aja sama Jonathan Rhys Meyers. Akhirnya setelah dia menghilang sekian lama, dia nongol lagi. Dan sumpah dia ganteng bangeeeettt! Dia keliatan polos gitu di film_nya! Kalo buat action mungkin gue lebih suka John Travolta. Keren banget deh sumpah. Terus gue ngeliat thriller nya film Arthur and The Revenge Of Maltazard. God! I really wanna see this movie! Dan terus apa lagi ya? Oh iya hampir lupa. Gue kasih tau ya kalo hari ini, FREDDIE HIGHMORE ULANG TAHUN! God! Gue pengen deh ketemu sama dia terus ngucapin selamat ulang tahun langsung ke orangnya. Ampun deh sumpah aahhhhh.... I really wanna meet him!

Yang paling penting alasan gue nulis blog ini adalah untuk ngucapin happy birthday buat idola gue :) Kalo gue ketemu orangnya ya gue pengen bilang, "HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALFRED THOMAS HIGHMORE! I'M YOUR BIG FANS AND I'LL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU! HOPE YOU ALL THE BEST! HOPE YOU'LL FIND MANY LOVES ON THIS DAY BECAUSE YOUR BIRTHDAY IS ON VALENTINE'S DAY. AND HOPE THIS DAY WILL BE YOUR PERFECT DAY!" Gituuu terus gue pengen take pictures yang banyaaaakkkk sama dia. Ih sumpah gue sedeng sendiri kan. Sumpah ya dia itu cowok paling perfect yang pernah gue liat. Dia itu manis, ganteng, lucu kayak bugs bunny hihi, pinter, sopan, baik, ramah, dan many more deh. Sumpah ahhh beruntung banget Dakota Fanning! Eh gue taro fotonya ya? Ok, wait a minute please!





Terus ini foto Jonathan Rhys Meyers










Hihi sorry kalo kebanyakan abisnya gue bener bener suka sama mereka berdua. Pokoknya mereka itu THE BEST ACTORS I EVER KNOWN!