12.02.11 :)

12.02.11 I won't forget abt this day! Today was a fairytale! Hahaha hari ini gue sama senior-senior kelas 11 dan 12 ngisi acara as a vocal group di acara seminar GS. Kita disuruh dateng jam 8 terus kita latian. Abis itu yang tampil pertama itu kakak kelas 11 terus gue sama Nisa itu tampil jam duaan kalo gak salah. Kita berdua duet nyanyi lagu "Tuhan, Terima Kasih." Gak tau deh bagus atau gak itu duetnya :p Pokoknya gue sama Nisa seneng banget hari ini. Kita tadi ngobrol-ngobrol seru banget di angkot hahaha. Makasih ya buat kakak kelas 11nya dan makasih juga buat Kak Agung dan Kak Irfan yang udah ngiringin vocal group pakai gitar :) Permainan gitarnya keren \m/ Know what the best part is? I finally talked to the senior that i like! Haha Thank God it's Saturday! :D


Hey Stephen by Taylor Swift

Hey Stephen, I know looks can be deceiving
But I know I saw a light in you
And as we walked we were talking
I didn't say half the things I wanted to

Of all the girls tossing rocks at your window
I'll be the one waiting there even when it's cold
Hey Stephen, boy, you might have me believing
I don't always have to be alone

'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

Hey Stephen, I've been holding back this feeling
So I got some things to say to you
I've seen it all, so I thought
But I never seen nobody shine the way you do

The way you walk, way you talk, way you say my name
It's beautiful, wonderful, don't you ever change
Hey Stephen, why are people always leaving?
I think you and I should stay the same

'Cause I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

They're dimming the street lights, you're perfect for me
Why aren't you here tonight?
I'm waiting alone now, so come on and come out
And pull me near and shine, shine, shine

Hey Stephen, I could give you fifty reasons
Why I should be the one you choose
All those other girls, well, they're beautiful
But would they write a song for you?

I can't help it if you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

If you look like an angel
Can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain so
Come feel this magic I've been feeling since I met you
Can't help it if there's no one else
Mmm, I can't help myself

Myself
Can't help myself
I can't help myself

PORCELAIN FACE? Well, it's me!

Peeps, pernah gak dikatain jutek sama temen-temen lo? Atau lo emang si miss jutek di sekolah lo? Well, itu yang sedang gue alamin. Banyak orang beranggapan bahwa gue orangnya jutek banget. Sering sinis sama orang dst dst. Sebenarnya gue gak jutek,tapi gue adalah contoh manusia yang bermuka datar tanpa ekspresi -__- gue sendiri kadang gak nyadar kalo gue suka ngeliat orang dengan tatapan sinis. Hmm dan satu hal yang mesti lo tau, terkadang gue bersikap sinis atau pasang tampang jutek untuk menutupi kenyataan bahwa gue lagi salting. Yup, i always show my porcelain face without smile in front of my senior that i like. But you know, actually i really wanna smile at him but i can't. It's hard for me to make a smile which is pure from my heart. Kenapa ya susah banget bagi gue untuk sekadar tersenyum tulus? Padahal senyum itu punya banyak manfaat kan? Nah, gue adalah tipe orang yang gak gampang senyum. Sekalinya senyum yang keluar malah senyum sinis .__.v Err i really dunno what to do! I just wanna lose my porcelain face and replace it with a friendly face. Can i? Well, at last but not least i wanna show you Taylor Swift's song, Speak Now. This is Dania and Farah's fave one :p


Speak Now by Taylor Swift

I am not the kind of girl,
Who should be rudely bargin' in on a white veil
occasion,
But you are not the kind of boy,
Who should be marryin' the wrong girl,

I sneak in and see your friends,
And her snotty little family, all dressed in pastel,
And she is yelling at a bridesmaid,
Somewhere back inside a room,
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry,
This is surely not what you thought it would be,
I lose myself in a daydream,
Where I stand and say:

"Don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,"
And they said, "Speak now,"

Fun gestures are exchanged,
And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march,
And I am hiding in the curtains,
It seems I was uninvited by your lovely bride-to-be,
She floats down the isle like a pageant queen,
But I know you wish it was me,
You wish it was me, don't you?

Don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,
And they said, "Speak now,"

Don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
Your time is running out,
And they said, "Speak now,"

I hear the preacher say,
"Speak now or forever hold your peace,"
There's a silence, there's my last chance,
I stand up with shaking hands,
All eyes on me,
Horrified looks from everyone in the room,
But I'm only lookin' at you,

I am not the kind of girl,
Who should be rudely bargin' in on a white veil
occasion,
But you are not the kind of boy,
Who should be marryin' the wrong girl,

So don't say yes, run away now,
I'll meet you when you're out,
Of the church at the back door,
Don't wait or say a single vow,
You need to hear me out,
And they said, "Speak now,"

And you say,
"Let's run away now,
I'll meet you when I'm out of my tux at the back door,
Baby, I didn't say my vows,
So glad you were around when they said, "Speak now,"

Dear Someone Who Make Me Cry

Today is the worst day ever! Something happened and it made me cry. I just can't stop crying. Someone gave me the biggest pain. Someone hurt me so bad.


Dear John by Taylor Swift


Long were the nights when my days once revolved around you
Counting my footsteps praying the floor won't fall through again
And my mother accused me of losing my mind
But I swore I was fine

You paint me a blue sky and go back and turn it to rain
And I lived in your chess game, but you changed the rules everyday
Wondering which version of you I might get on the phone tonight
Well, I stopped picking up and this song is to let you know why

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home
I should've known

Well, maybe it's just me and my blind optimism to blame
Or maybe it's you and your sick need to give love then take it away
And you'll add my name to your long list of traitors who don't understand
And I'll look back and regret how I ignored when they said run as fast as you can

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played with?
Your dark twisted games when I loved you so
I should've known

You are an expert at sorry and keeping lines blurry
Never impressed by me acing your tests
All the girls that you've run dry have tired, lifeless eyes
'Cause you've burn them out

But I took your matches before fire could catch me
So don't look now
I'm shining like fireworks over
Your sad, empty town

Dear John, I see it all now that you're gone
Don't you think I was too young to be messed with?
The girl in the dress cried the whole way home

Dear John, I see it all now it was wrong
Don't you think nineteen's too young to be played with?
The girl in the dress wrote you a song
You should've known

You should've known
Don't you think I was too young?
You should've known


What if i change 19 to be 15? Because i'm 15. And the title of this song is "Dear John." What if i change it into your name, SENIOR?

Weird Story (?)

I dunno what can i say in this blog. I just feel so confused and really dunno what to do. I mean, i think i'm in love w/ someone but i really don't wanna feel like this cause it's so impossible to make him wanna care w/ me. He doesn't even know me! I never talk w/ him. I guess i'm just his secret admire. But if i could be "frontal" i just wanna say like this :

"All the things that i know is you're not gone. All the things that i know is you can't be gone. All the things that i know is you belong with me. All the things that i know is i feel enough when i see your laugh. Please, just give me a chance before you graduate cause i just can't stop loving you"

Gosh, i should keep focus w/ my mission! I'm sure i wanna move on cause i don't wanna disturb him anymore. If i could only say one thing for that person, i wanna say, "sorry for being annoying to bother you cause i just can't stop loving you." Haha sounds really not cool. Okay peeps, i guess that enough about my weird story. Bye!

Fave Songs part 1

The Story Of Us by Taylor Swift

I used to think that one day we'd tell the story of us,
And how we met
And how the sparks flew instantly
And people would say they're the lucky ones

I used to know my place was the spot next to you,
Now I'm searching the room for an empty seat
Cause lately I don't even know what page you're on

Oh, a simple complication,
Miscommunications lead to a fallout,
So many things that I wish you knew
So many walls up, I can't break through

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

Next chapter

How did we end up this way?
See me nervously pulling at my clothes
And trying to look busy
And you're doing your best to avoid me

I'm starting to think one day I'll tell the story of us
How I was losing my mind when I saw you here
But you held your pride like you should have held me

Oh, I'm scared to see the ending,
Why are we pretending this is nothing?
I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how
I've never heard silence quite this loud.

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

This is looking like a contest
Of who can act like they care less
But I liked it better when you were on my side

The battle's in your hands now
But I would lay my armor down
If you said you'd rather love than fight

So many things that you wish I knew
But the story of us might be ending soon

Now I'm standing alone in a crowded room
And we're not speaking
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you like it's killing me, yeah

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate
When it all broke down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now
Now, now, now

And were not speaking,
And I'm dying to know
Is it killing you
Like it's killing me?

And I don't know what to say since a twist of fate,
'Cause were going down
And the story of us
Looks a lot like a tragedy now

The End



Enchanted by Taylor Swift

There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired place lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say

It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
{ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/enchanted-lyrics.html }
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you




These songs are especially for someone who i love more than my life and always makes my heart starts beating faster :')

My Memories About Him

I wanna share something here. I ever had a close friend when i was 4 years old. His name's Nando. My mom told me that he's a nice and handsome guy. He always played with me. He called me "Nadila." On last holiday i went to Bandar Lampung my birthplace. Actually i wished i could meet him in that place but i didn't meet him :( my mom said that he's in Kendari now. It's so far from Jakarta. But i always wish i could meet him even just for a day cause i really wanna see his face. I saw him as my brother and maybe now i still miss him as my brother. When he was a child, he's like an angel. He never did something bad to me. I really wanna know where's him now. Maybe he's 16 now and will be 17. He's 2 years older than me. He has a younger sista. His sista's name is Siska. Siska is younger than me. And what else? I can't tell you all about him cause i really dunno all about him. I just know his nickname. Just that. But i believe, someday i'll meet him for once again no matter what happen :) That's my destiny to meet him for once again. God, please make my dream comes true.

Long Time No Post

Long time no post. Haha i'm a senior high school student now and i feel very tired. Okay udah lama gue ngilang dari blog gue. Nah, sekarang gue pengen ngomong sesuatu yang udah gak bisa gue pendam lagi. Jadi gini loh, gue itu adalah orang yang selalu takut untuk berubah. Gue paling takut ngedenger orang berpandangan negative sama gue. Aduh, baru aja gue nulis beberapa baris langsung dapet masalah dan rasanya gak enak banget. Kata guru gue, karna bintang gue Scorpio jadi gue mudah tersinggung dan agak cengeng. Ya, itu emang bener sih. Malah bener banget. Tapi gue gak cengeng loh. Okay make it faster. Backing to the topic. Terkadang nih ya gue itu kalo udah marah banget suka ngomong kasar. Emang jelek banget sih sifat gue. Jadi, apa maksud gue nulis blog? Gue pengen mencoba untuk berubah secara bertahap. Tapi gue ragu. Apa gue bisa? Terus ada hal lain lagi yang bikin gue ngerasa sedih. Kata orang perbedaan itu indah. Tapi kenapa bagi gue perbedaan justru terasa menyakitkan? Apalagi perbedaan yang begitu jauh. Hhh gue kayaknya lebih suka "persamaan" daripada perbedaan. Kadang kan pasti kita ngerasa kalo kita gak diterima karna kita berbeda. Yah, pokoknya gitu deh. Gue gak tau mesti nulis dengan cara gimana abisan bingung. Terus ini ada dua lagi yang lagi gue suka banget untuk saat ini.

I Never Told You by Colbie Caillat

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we see
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not
Around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
(still you're gone)
Can't believe that I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I miss those blue eyesnya diganti sama kalimat i miss those black eyes aja deh. Terus kalimat how you kissed me at night nya diilangin aja deh.


Hero by Sterling Knight

I'm no superman
I can't take your hand
And fly you anywhere
You wanna go (yeah)

I can't read your mind
Like a billboard sign
And tell you everything
You wanna hear but

I'll be your hero

I, I can be everything you need
If you're the one for me
Like gravity I'll be unstoppable

I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy
With heart and soul
But if you're the one for me then
Then I'll be your hero

(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero
(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero

Searching high and low
Trying every road
If I see your face
How will I know(yeah)

I put my trust in fate
If you'll will come my way
And if it's bright
It's undeniable (yeah)

I'll be your hero

I, I can be everything you need
If you're the one for me
Like gravity I'll be unstoppable

I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy
WIth heart and soul
But if you're the one for me then
Then I'll be your hero

(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero
(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
Then I'll be your hero

So incredible
Some kind of miracle
When it's meant to be
I'll become a hero
So I'll wait, wait
Wait, wait for you

I'll be your hero

I, I can be everything you need
If you're the one for me
Like gravity I'll be unstoppable
(Be unstoppable)

I, yeah I believe in destiny
I may be an ordinary guy
With heart and soul
But if you're the one for me
I'll be your hero

(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
I'll be your hero
(Could you be the one [x3]for me)
I'll be your hero


Kata Supermannya diganti sama wonderwoman terus kata guy diganti sama girl aja deh. Ini lagu yang ada di Starstruck dan gue suka banget film itu meski gue biasa aja sih sama tokoh utamanya hehe.

Okay deh i guess that's all. Au revoir!