He Is My Sweetest Memory

Selesai bukan berarti tamat. Putus bukan berarti harus bermusuhan. Selalu aja terngiang kalimat itu di benak saya. Ya, saya mungkin sudah tidak berpacaran lagi dengannya tapi saya berani sumpah rasa sayang ini masih ada. Tapi itu bukan berarti saya menyesal atas segala keputusan. Saya tidak ingin menyesali yang telah terjadi. Biarlah hal itu terjadi, kita tinggal memperbaikinya. Saya sendiri pun jujur tidak tau bagaimana akan menyelesaikan masalah ini. Dimulai dari menata hati, memperbaiki hubungan pertemanan dan sebagainya. Kini dia dan saya hanyalah sebatas senior dan junior. Saya tau itu. Saya sangat mengerti akan hal itu. Tapi, itu bukan berarti saya tidak punya kesempatan kedua kan? Tuhan bersama saya. Insya Allah kalo berjodoh pasti dipertemukan kembali. Saya hanya ingin berusaha. Hati saya tidak fleksibel. Saya tidak mudah menyukai seseorang. Saya bersyukur karena akhirnya saya dapat menangis lepas hari ini. Kini waktunya bagi saya untuk bangkit. Mengapa saya tidak mencoba dari sekarang untuk mencoba menjalin kasih kembali? Ada 3 alasan :

1. Dia tengah menjalani pertandingan yang serius dan saya tidak ingin mengganggunya
2. Saya sedang mencoba untuk jadi yang lebih baik sebelum akhirnya memutuskan untuk kembali padanya
3. Saya tidak ingin melihatnya sakit hati

Terkadang saya khawatir bahwa keberadaan saya hanya membuat dia sedih. Saya akui saya bukanlah makhluk sempurna. Saya sering membuatnya susah. Saya ini ibaratkan bocah yang begitu merepotkan. Saya ingin menjadi gadis dewasa dahulu sebelum akhirnya menampakkan diri saya di depannya. Saya tidak ingin mengecewakannya lagi.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

Ada 2 buah lagu yang saya ingin persembahkan untuknya

The Reason by Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


Two Is Better Than One by Boys Like Girls

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one
Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

Even though i'm not yours anymore, my heart always belongs to you. You're the sweetest memory in my life. Thank you for made my life brighter. I love you most, CA<3